When faith only brings darkness
Mother Teresa’s vow to “to give to God anything that He may ask—‘Not to refuse Him anything,” was sorely tested by her deep and extended times of darkness.
Halfway through the edited letters of Mother Teresa: Come Be My Light.
Teresa received most of her acclaim (with which she was always very uncomfortable) from the self-sacrificing work she started among the poor in India. Only after great persistence was she given permission to start her new ministry to the poor. Soon after she began working with the poor, she began to experience the silence and darkness of God.
From the above book, here are some comments about interior darkness or the dark night of the soul.
- the painful purifications one undergoes before reaching union with God
- has two phases: the “night of the senses” and the “night of the spirit.”
- In the first night one is freed from attachment to sensory satisfactions and drawn into the prayer of contemplation.
- Darkness, pain, dryness, and emptiness. Although the emptiness and absence of God are only apparent, they are a great source of suffering.
- During the “night of the spirit,” there is purging
- a state of extreme aridity
- one feels rejected and abandoned by God.
- excruciating because one wants only God and loves Him greatly but is unable to recognize one’s love for Him.
- Prayer is difficult, almost impossible; spiritual counsel practically of no avail; and various exterior trials may add to this pain.
Regarding exterior trials, Mother Teresa had many after being cut off from former friends and sisters when she started a new order.
Here is a quote from Mother Teresa to her new workers:
Jesus wants me to tell you again…how much is the love He has for each one of you—beyond all what you can imagine…. Not only He loves you, even more—He longs for you. He misses you when you don’t come close. He thirsts for you. He loves you always, even when you don’t feel
And feel His love, she did not except when among the poor. To be continued!