Getting what you want
A troubling verse, Psalm 106:15, “He gave them what they asked, but sent a wasting disease among them.” ESV. The KJV says, “He sent leanness into their soul.”
The context to which the Psalm refers is the wilderness wanderings of the children of Israel (Num 11:31-35). Apparently, sometimes, God will give us what we want even if it is not the best.
Reading this week in Psalm 107. Give thanks to the LORD because He is good, because His lovingkindness endures forever. Four times, the people get into desperate situations in this Psalm–wandering around and hungry and thirsty (5), in darkness and in bondage (10), suffering because of their foolish and sinful choices (17) and going crazy with terror as they faced evil (26-7). But each time (6, 13, 19, 28), “They cried to the LORD in their trouble and he delivered them from their distress.” And following each deliverance, the Psalmist warns (?) them (8, 15, 21, 31)
“Let them thank the LORD for his steadfast love, for his wondrous works to the children of men”
I asked myself, “What is it that I want? For what do I hunger and thirst?” Mtt 6:33 and 5:6 teach me how to be satisfied with appropriate longing.
Too often, my craving is not for righteousness and for holiness. I am grateful for the times when the LORD does not give me what I am craving. Maybe it would be valuable for me to do some fasting and reflect on the things for which I crave.
Pretty clear from Psalm 107–God can turn that which may look like a river into a desert and that which is a desert into a soul quenching spring (33-38).
May we refuse to be satisfied by anyone or anything apart from God. May our longing be for Him!